Happy Valentines Day   
02:43am 14/02/2010
 
mood: flirty
Austin and I just had a midnight/early morning picnic with homemade ice cream, raspberries and strawberries, and every sundae topping imaginable.
I'm happy I don't have to work tomorrow, and I can just relax with my boy and whoever else is going to join us in watching a marathon of movies tomorrow. I plan to live in a pile of blankets and pillows with my friends tomorrow eating cookies and chocolate and having countless strawberry daiquiris.

:]		  
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summer   
05:01pm 14/08/2009
 
mood: happy
Goodbye, summer. It's been a beautiful and relaxing one. No drama, just bonfires. No crazy boys, just Austin and Jay. No dumb girls, just me and Steph and Erika.
School starts for me a week from this coming Monday. I'm nervous, more nervous than last year even. I'm just hoping that this chill summer season will carry me through the rest of the school year, or at least until Spring Break, during which I'm planning another trip to Cali with the bests. :]		  
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On a boat :D   
12:47pm 21/07/2009
 
mood: happy
Well, later I'll be on a boat. Going kayaking, as weird as that sounds, for a day trip. With some sandwiches, a cooler of beer, and (I can say this and mean it honestly) my love, Austin.
It's a good feeling.		  
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yep   
12:32am 17/06/2009
 
mood: cheerful
I'm back from California (have been for a few days now). It was amazing, I really liked it. It is good to be home though. My favorite thing about the whole vacation was the way Austin wrapped himself around me every night in a giant goodnight bear hug.
We had the first bonfire of the summer yesterday night. Jay told some wicked scary ghost stories and I was jumping at shadows and moths. :)		  
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but in dreams we will meet again   
12:36am 06/06/2009
 
mood: mellow
Today was not the best, I won't freaking lie. Work sucked. We were swamped the entire time and there were only two waitresses, me and a new girl who's a little off her rocker. It was terrible. She talks to herself, it's so weird I can barely stand it.
Austin called me as I was out hunting for cigarettes (gas stations fail) to kindly inform me that he is taking me out to breakfast tomorrow. :)
Annnnnnnd I leave for Cali Sunday morning! By far the highlight of the week!
xoxo: chels		  
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smooth sailing   
01:24am 26/05/2009
 
mood: optimistic
Memorial Day weekend is passed, and I can now say that it is summer. Summer! Steph, Erika, Jay, and I (and some other friends) are making a trip to California in a few weeks. Erika's sister and brother-in-law live out there in the San Diego area (don't ask too many details, I just know that I have work off, and I'm going!) I am sooooo excited, I've never been there. I think Austin and his sister might be coming, but who knows.
Let's see. I've still been waiting tables at the same place all year, and Steph/Jay/I have been doing the wedding reception-serving thing again, just like last summer. It calls for some traveling, but because all three of us are doing it, it's going to be easy work and fun car rides. I already paid off half of my student loan from this year (it was a small loan to begin with, thank god for scholarships) so I've been feeling really good lately about my financial situation.
Austin is amazing. I know it's only been a week or two of real dates, but he's fun to be around. I've played too much Halo in the past week for my own well-being. What a terrible influence he is. jk.
That's all for now. I just wanted to throw it out there that I love summer, and that I have a good time with my friends. Here's to warm summer nights with bonfires and fireflies: I'm having the best season of my life.
xoxo-chels		  
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boom-boom   
06:20pm 21/04/2009
 
mood: bouncy
Finals are in two weeks, and I can say that my first year of college went by fast. I could measure it by the friends I've made or lack of but it just depends how you look at it. I could say that my professors sucked and my classes were shit, but that would be lying. I could say I fell out of love because that's true, but Nate's been gone from my love life for ages anyway, but i guess we get along okay now. I can say that yeah it went by fast but parts of the year just dragged. I made friends, not a lot, but solid friends and not a few acquaintances. There were no teachers that I can say I hated, and my classes were solid, even if I don't know what I want to do with my life (why can't I pick a major? Business? Art? Pre-med? Veterinary med? there's too many! I think I'm going to pick something to do with medicine though).

Why does last summer seem to long ago?		  
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a seduction line and the applause of the crowd   
12:13am 11/03/2009
 
mood: pleased
music: Spice Girls-Move Over
I have been busy, bumping and grinding at one job (waitressing at the new place is superb) and dancing at the other (volunteering at an elementary school with the music class and the art teacher). I've been learning how to style hair and it's been so much fun. I dyed Steffy's a beautiful honey blonde with some crazy white-ish highlights underneath. the base color is so close to mine that it's nearly scary how alike we look!
Jay introduced me to a friend of his a couple weeks ago, a younger guy named Austin. A group of us friends hung out a few times since then, and yesterday afternoon I went and got some coffee with him. I don't crush very easily. I'd rather have friends who are guys then have a boyfriend. Our conversation branched out everywhere yesterday, and we really did connect. I like having friends around who I can laugh with and still make an attempt at holding a smart chat hahaha. Well, I don't know where that friendship will go, but I like talking to him. He and Jay are a real pair sometimes just hilarious.
In other (exciting? nerve-racking? anxious?) news, I found out that one of the girls I've gotten really tight with from classes is having a baby! She had her first ultrasound just last week and Shannon asked me to go with her because (Josh) her boyfriend couldn't make it. Actually, HE asked me to go with her. It was really quite sweet, he felt so bad that he couldn't be there. But so far everything's good with her and the kiddo, and they are too cute of a couple. They're smart, too. The baby wasn't entirely a surprise, and though Shannon's only a few years older than me, Josh is out of college and working at a firm (i want to say he's like 26 or something, I can't remember), so they seem to have the means to support a new addition. I know I'm young and I also know that kids are not in the picture for me right now, I don't have the emotional stability nor the income. no no no no no.
whew. it's been too long. I have a test tomorrow, now I'm all ready for some studying before bed.		  
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I'll be your next mistake   
03:57pm 15/02/2009
 
mood: flirty
Here is where I would normally put my argument against Hallmark holidays, but this year I can't bring myself to really care. Since 2009 began, I've been having fun and staying busy, and even if there is no steady boyfriend to take up my spare time, I still manage. I can really say that I'm not lonely, not at all. I have my best friends living with me (I doubt that friendship will ever change) and even steffy's boyfriend is starting to get more comfortable around us.

Instead of moping about and watching sappy movies last night, we're had a poker night. Steff and her boy boycotted the holiday and even stayed in with us, hah we had some fun. Now I'm going to go clean, we really trashed the house this weekend.		  
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The Holiday update   
07:40pm 30/12/2008
  I have spent the past two and a half weeks being the girl I was last spring, and that's not really a bad thing right now. My family annoys me as usual, but there's no changing who you're born to heh. I got some hours at the pizzeria so my life has consisted of me working, drinking coffee late at night with Nate at his apartment, playing Halo, and smoking cigarettes.
Speaking of Nate, I guess we're friends again. I don't know what he wants from me or from whatever this relationship may or may not turn into, but I do know that I can't date him again. I told him that yesterday after work just to set that straight.
I'm headed back to school tomorrow for a new year's bash at our house which I really excited for! We're having a themed party (Titled "Sparkle!") and all of us girls got matching silver glittered dresses. hehe it'll be a good time, just to hang out with a bunch of friends old and new (I even invited Brad...yeah....I don't know why I did that, but he's not coming anyway, he'll be with his family before he ships back off to whatever military thing he's in). my car is already packed, I just have to wake up tomorrow and drive back. Not too shabby.		  
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hush hush   
08:06pm 13/12/2008
 
mood: bouncy
music: Kanye West
My first semester of college is done. The holidays approach! :]		  
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You're just a phone call away   
01:58am 01/12/2008
 
mood: busy
It's been ages since I've posted up here. In general I've been neglecting my 'net sites lately hehe. I had a good Thanksgiving and now I'm all caught up on my homework. Jay made lasagna for dinner tonight for a family moment among the four of us, and we watched Casino Royale.
It's been a good day.		  
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My first and last political post   
12:35am 05/11/2008
 
mood: awake
Obama is president.
I kick ass in school. Steffy has a new boooooyfriend. :] Oh, and boys suck for me. I'm hanging out with Andrew tomorrow anyway.		  
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I will take it for granted   
11:55pm 19/10/2008
 
mood: moody
Why do I always fall back to what I knew and left behind for a reason? What a fucking terrible idea to get myself reattatched and the only thing that Im going to get out of this is another broken heart.
Jay bought a tattoo gun kit. I told him he could practice on me.		  
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New Found Glory: "Doubt Full"   
12:35am 15/10/2008
 
mood: drunk
"Doubt Full"

This letter explains everything
The content it is the truth
Each word could cut like daggers
If I decide to finally give it to you

I've rewrote and rechecked a thousand times
Licked it shut and said my goodbyes
The lines are perfectly written to break
Wide open this conclusion

And it feels like I've already been there
Sounds like I'm preaching the choir
If it looks like it won't work out
I'm the one, one full of doubt

I know that time wont change a thing
If we're all moving in slow motion
It's hard to catch up
When the world is weighing you down

And it feels like I've already been there
Sounds like I'm preaching the choir
If it looks like it won't work out
I'm the one

It feels like I've already been there
Sounds like I'm preaching the choir
If it looks like it won't work out
I'm the one, one full of doubt

I'm confused
Don't know what I should do now
You, you could lose everything close to you
Tell me how does this feel

When it feels like i've already been there
Sounds like I'm preaching the choir
If it looks like it won't work out
I'm the one... yea

It feels like I've already been there
Sounds like I'm preaching the choir
If it looks like it won't work out
I'm the one, the one full of doubt

It's been a rough couple weeks. My brother got in a car accident and broke his leg, luckily no one else was hurt. My step dad took away my car one day and wouldn't give it back until I pointed out that's in my name, I pay for insurance and gas and everything else. hehe. yeah, I've actually written nearly every day these past three weeks, but everything's saved to my computer. I might put some stuff up later, I've been getting a feel for being artsy and craftsy.		  
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baby everything is BEAUTIFUL   
12:44am 09/10/2008
 
mood: pensive
Life is moving so slowly for me. It's like everyone else has so many things going for them, and here I am, just dead weight, dragging them all down with my insecurities, my pathetic hobbies (or lack-there-of), my obsession with having the tv remotes arranged just so. So many little things have been getting to me: I can't stay focused on homework, no matter how hard I try. homework just keeps on piling up. steffy's music today was loud and obnoxious and there was no where quiet that I could go to so I could finish my homework. What I want to do is just sit down at a diner and talk for hours on end. So I called Nate which was probably a bad idea whatever. he made me list off all the good things I have going for me, and i do have a lot of good things. Like steffy and jay and erika, and the kids we play video games with. I don't smoke like a fiend anymore, we have weekly scrabble tournies, erika always makes spaghettti on thursdays. and yet I still feel so down and out.
I'm hoping that this feeling will go away soon.		  
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ahead of the storm   
01:53pm 22/09/2008
 
mood: devious
I came back home last night and Steffy just gave me her look. Oh man, I got a talking to.		  
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killing the moon   
03:53pm 15/09/2008
 
mood: peaceful
I had a great weekend, and I really don't have anything else to add to that. Steffy and I hung out with my new friend Andrew and his buddies one night, and then with Erika and her girls for dinner the next.
Andrew and I are getting pizza for dinner tonight. He opens doors for me. I think I like him. =]
Homework for an hour and then I'm going for a bike ride around the neighborhood. Tonight's a good night for a walk.		  
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stood with a smile on his face   
04:25pm 09/09/2008
 
mood: relaxed
College is hard. I've come to this realization, and it's only been a couple weeks. I'm not behind yet, but it's getting there. I need to stay on track, but I'm having a hard time staying focused. I don't have anyone to tell me what to do, and as much as I didn't like it in high school and from my mom it helped then and I need it now. It's whipping my ass.
My housemates are awesome. Erika made all of us dinner yesterday because for once we were all in the house at night. Jay had the morning shift at his job, Stef and I were home from class, and we ate a lot of spagetti and too much garlic bread while watching TV. Oh, and us girlys are joining Erika's friends for a dinner party tomorrow night. I'm really looking forward to it, meeting more people from here. I have been hanging out with the kids from my english class, we played cards over the weekend instead of having out study group. I just haven't found anyone that I want to be realyl close to yet...until today. I couldn't get my wallet out of my purse when I was getting a coffee so the guy behind me bought it for me......and then we sat in that hallway and just talked. It was so nice. We exchanged phone numbers, he invited me and whoever I want to bring to a video game night later today, so I'll see if I can get stef to come with me.
yeah well that's about it for now.		  
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Blondes and red bracelets   
09:15pm 08/09/2008
 
mood: moody
College is busting me into pieces. It doesn't help that I'm PMSing.
I'll have something more inspirational and better to write about.		  
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